Vlog #81 Edogawabashi and Akihabara: Books, dolls and Kachapon

Today, I went to Edogawabashi for the Bouquinerie Solidaire which is a charity book sale, mostly in French. I wanted to go there for a while but I actually missed the first time because of the rain and then forgot about it until I discovered an email this morning.

I managed to find a few books. If I can read them all by the end of next month, I'll go back to the event since it's held every 4th Sunday of the month.

Then I went to the Azone store in Akihabara. They have transferred the Kikipop festival dolls over there. And they have a few more so I wanted to take a look. I brought dolls with me to take pictures, just in case they had the dinner set up again but they didn't.

I also took pictures of the rest of the display. They still have some of the Otogi no Kuni excutes, as well as the new release with swapped outfit, and the Sahra's a la mode in the otogi no kuni outfit on display. Since I hadn't seen them, that was really nice.

Then I decided to go to the Volks store on floor above. I don't go there very often because normally you can't take pictures. They have changed the entire set up of the store and I was able to take pictures and film there. It was fantastic. They have a lot more dolls than before too and more space to take pictures of your own dolls. It's not called the Volks store anymore, it's called Doll point and it's for having fun on top of buying doll stuff. True it was fun.

I also checked out other store so you can see some pullip footage. And I bought some kachapon which I open at the end of the vlog video.

Here is the full vlog

Here is the Book related video



Here is the Azone video



Here is the Volks video

 

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The Artist's Way (Day 23) Chapter 4 part 2: Reading Deprivation: No Freaking Way!

I had to cut the chapter 4 video in half because it was way too long. This part is on the particular exercise this week: Reading Deprivation. 

The fact is, I was almost reading free for 10 days when I was in Hawaii and I had no problem finding things to do as you saw on my blog. I can also go for a day without reading here and there every time there is a doll event. 

If you are going to use reading deprivation as a way to cut other people's opinion fro your life like it's sort of the point in the book, I would suggest you spent a week away from every one, that would be a lot more efficient. 

I don't really get the point of cutting a good habit like reading. If it's so that you can save time for other things, well I would say cut TV and start reading books instead because the amount of people not reading enough is way too high to tell anyone to stop reading. I seriously mean it. 

It is true that depriving yourself from something is going to take you closer to your own consciousness, so you might want to cut of something from time to time. In most main religion, they have fasting periods to help with that, be it, Lent, Ramadan or Yom Kippur. 

Cutting yourself from society can be good for you to be able to form your own opinion if you are that fragile that you take what everyone else's say to heart but if you have any form of self-esteem and know a little bit about yourself and your own thought process, I find reading deprivation to be pretty useless.

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The Artist's Way (Day 23) Chapter 4 part 1: Solitude Work and the dark side of the coin

Here is my review of Chapter 4. I have to say I was once again so annoyed with this chapter that I wanted to seriously quit and I think I found a method to deal with this book and sort of quit at the same time (more on that later).
I'm really annoyed with this Chapter because even though it looks good in theory it has so many flaws in covering the topic that I wasn't even sure where to start.
I had to read the part about Honest Changes twice to make sure that I actually wasn't dreaming.
It looks nice if you have no clue about how your own emotion work. It's true that you are going to have a lot of nice things about yourself coming up. But those are the easy bits. It's like how I want too bake cookies for my kids every Sunday I never realised that let me get some flour.
The problem is not with the nice bit. The problem is with the bad bits that are going to come up. The problem is with the yucky stuff about yourself that you are going to hate. This book doesn't prepare you to accept things you love when you see them consciously as a negative. And that's the main problem I have with it. Because we all love the drama in our life and we love our bad habits because they somehow make sense and there is no way it just show you the good stuff and pretend that everything is going to be all right.
The positive side only is killing me. I find it gross and exhausting. 

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The Artist's Way (Day 22) Check in for week 3 and Ignoring red flags

So that's the end of week three of the Artist's Way project, time actually flies.
In this video, I'm going through the check in of week 3.
So I did my morning pages every day. They felt a little bit more calm than before. Like I'm not talking about as much crap, more about my productivity I guess.
I still have problem with what to consider and Artist's date because I think that everything I do is considered an artist date, that sort of defy the purpose of the all thing. I feel that an artist date has to be something a bit more special than that.
I probably had a bit of synchronicity but it could also be that I was just looking for stuff.
And yes, I consider that getting kicked out of the group was significant to my recovery in the way that I won't be ignoring the red flags or gut feelings I have about a person and waste my time on people who don't worth it. So I'm going to show the red flags I ignore at the end of the videos, there are more than that so seriously I don't even understand how I thought the association was a good idea. 

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The Artist's Way (Day 21) Affirmation and Admiration (with video)

In this video, I'm going through the last exercises of chapter 3 and my thought about the use of affirmation. I'm not actually using the affirmation in the book as since I read chapter one they are still going way over my head but I'm using my own affirmation because of what I actually want to become. 

The way I'm using the affirmation is more to align my subconscious believe with my conscious wants. So I'm sort of trying to reprogram my subconscious into wanting what I consciously want. It's going to take some times to be effective so I'll update you in a month on either it's working or not.

I'm talking about my new way of going affirmation as described in this video and the reason why can be found in this article.

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The Artist's Way (Day 20) Brain Space

So today I did my morning pages. I didn't do any exercises. I wanted too but I didn't find the time. I started to work on scheduling Blog posts which isn't really creative since it's more like a copy paste process but it involves my writing still.
In this video I'm talking a little bit about brain space, which basically mean what you are thinking about taking space in your brain. I try to minimise how my brain space is occupied as much as I can by dealing with things straight away instead of letting them linger. I guess that's how I manage to do my morning pages first thing in the morning before everything else.
I'm also showing you my partially finished bear. 

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The Artist's Way (Day 19) Childhood Achievements and Mini Artist Date

I did my morning pages and the exercises 3 to 6. 

Those where a bit difficult to me because my childhood achievement are not really something I think about regularly. Also there isn't much I would count as an achievement. Even know when I achieve something, I rarely have the feeling that I actually achieved something, for me everything is just part of a whole, it's just life, just one more thing done. I don't have that ability to really rejoice in my achievement even when they are something important like finishing NaNoWriMo or publishing a novel... 

Then there was the all part about friends in part 5 and 6. And I'm kind of a person who really like to be alone. I don't feel lonely very often. I kind of need to be alone to do my things too so those two exercises are going to be skipped. 

Then I sort of had a mini artist date last night. I went to Daiso since I needed a new notebook for my morning pages and I bought some art supplies and a notebook for my music and some decoration for my lil'fairy house. 

Here is the video

 

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The Artist's Way (Day 18) Music and Care Bears

This is update for day 18. In the morning, I did my morning pages. Then I worked on the music of the song I wrote during my artist date and I started a new care bear. 

The music is coming along well. I managed to get the melody down and I asked for a little bit of help for the chords since it was my first time doing that and I have it through the introduction. 

Then I'm showing you my care bears. 

The care bear is a sort of project that I started a long time ago. It's just going one bear at a time. There is no bear limit. The one I'm creating now is a middle size rainbow colored bear, the first of its kind. 

Then in the evening, I went thought exercise 1 and 2. There was a description of my bedroom and some thought about what I like. So this chapter is a bit of regression work, just not really the one I would use to deal with shame and anger in an effective manner. 

 Here is the video

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The Artist's Way Day 17 (Chapter 3): Jealousy, Godless meaning of life, Shame

So today, I'm starting on chapter 3.

It's a lot better than chapter 2 but I still have a lot of issues with the "God" concept.

This chapter is separated into several parts.

The first one is anger and it basically explains that you have to act on those "anger" moment to get into what you really want because that's what those anger moments are about.

The way I see it, those are more little jealousy moment when you compare yourself to others, compare what they did to what you think you could do. I don't personally think we should act on them. I see them more as jealousy issues than real anger.

I would rather acknowledge my own value and achievement instead of measuring them by comparing myself to other people. It don't think all that healthy to me. The thing is. As long as you are comparing yourself to other you are going to have hundred of those moment with more or less realistic actions that you can take about them. Are you supposed to get everything you want as soon as you have a jealous fit... I don't think so.

The second part is synchronicity, which for me is once again more like cause and effect. I don't have much issue about the end of this part but I do have a huge issue about the mambo jumbo at the beginning and the way meaning is treated as being inherently associated to god. I have also huge problem with the never ending way the author is trying to sort of guilt trip people into using their "gift" from god because they owe it to god. Guess what, new flash, You don't owe shit to anyone. period. Even god whoever your god is.

Then there is the third part about Shame. I agree with almost everything that said there even though the book doesn't bring much of a solution to the shaming problem and only consider the aspect of bad criticism. Shaming deserved a lot more than that as it is at first programmed in you by our upbringing.

Here is the video

Useful links to go deeper into the topics.

Actualized.org videos:
Understanding Meaning, Purpose, & Value.
Uncovering Your Childhood Vows - Unwire Your Neurotic Personality

Badwitches articles:
7 revolutionary habits of wealthy witches.
A dangerous love letter from my shadow.
What happened when I told the Goddess to fuck off.
7-things that happened when I quit my fancy internet life.


Novel mentioned int the video:
The alchemist, Firestarter.


 

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The Artist's Way (Day 12-13) Drawings

Today we are having a 2 days update again since I didn't make a video for day 12 yesterday.

On day 12, I did exercise 3 which is to list tasks that I used to do and haven't do. Also we had to put some dates but as I explain I didn't really since a lot of them I haven't done since I either moved to Ireland or Japan and I won't be able to do them here.

Then on day 13, I decided to do one which was creating a cover for Demon Soul. Of course I created something really crappy, but it was still fun. The curious thing though is that my first cover is still better than those. I really hope that my cover artist will come up with something awesome soon.

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The Artist's Way (Day 11) Scheduling

Today I started to do the exercises in chapter 2. I find myself being quite resistant about number 1 and I kind of enjoy number 2. So today, I'm talking a bit about scheduling and how I go about it, like how I don't like to cut tasks into pieces but I would totally prefer to just do things all at once.

Then I talk about my daily work. I have been working on my book "Demon Soul" quite a bit recently and I also read a lot. I mean Game of Thrones is a big book. 

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The Artist's Way (Day 10) Skepticism, Narcissistic abuse

So I read chapter 2 and I got a little bit pissed. Ok, kind of really annoyed actually. I'm not really sure what was the purpose of the whole "crazymakers" part of it, except for it being like take the asshole out of your life but it seriously pissed me off. Because of the lack of understanding behind narcissistic abuse and the lack of empathy. And also the lack of solution, I mean telling victims that they are using their abuser not to be creative really rubbed me the wrong way.

It is true that we often use a lot of excuses not to be our best but there are also limits to that argument. One point that really annoyed me is that it's always super easy to blame the victim of a narcissist since there is no trace of the abuse, the abuse is invisible and many times everyone around think that the narcissist is the great guy and that you are just a crazy person. So having that kind of talk in this book in a chapter about "recovering a sense of identity" it just annoyed the hell out of me. It also lack of empathy.

Anyway, if you manage to survive to the end of the video which is really long today, I also talk about the last part of this chapter about "Attention" which was way better. 

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The Artist's Way (Day 8-9) An Experiment of One

Today is a video about Day 8 and 9 of my Artist's Way project. I was a bit sick for the past few days so I haven't been making much progress on the book. I have been reading Game of Throne instead to be honest, lol because I find it a lot more entertaining.

I'm not done with this Chapter but here is my first impression. The part that bugs me so far is that it's supposed to be a Chapter again toxicity and I sort of find it toxic itself. I'm going to have to finish it before making my conclusion though.

Anyway, tell me what you think about it and I'll see if we agree or not and explain my point of view in the next video.

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The Artist's Way (Day 7) First Week Check In and Spirituality Rant

So today is the last day of the first Week of my Artist's Way project.

So I have to do a Check in and answer some questions.

So I did my Morning Pages for 7 days without fail.

I didn't go on my artist's date.

I don't find the Artist's Way particularly helpful. I don't know if it's because I feel like I already did the exercises on myself before. And I didn't really have to recover my safety which was the plan of the first week.

I'm going to continue and see what the second week brings. Hopefully I'll find something a bit more worthy of my time. I started this project not really knowing what to expect but I thought it was going to give me a bit more clarity about how to be more productive as an artist by increasing my conscientiousness but actually it doesn't. It's more based on some spiritual way of thinking about creativity while I'm more the type of person who sees creativity as hard work.

Here is the video

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The Artist's Way (Day 6) I took an Oath (with video)

So today I did my morning pages and my affirmation. I was actually late very late because I spent the night reading game of throne. I had something weird happening during my positive affirmations. I had a thought about something saying something bad to me just to realised that it bothered me so much because someone else had said it before many time over. So I wrote them in the "Monster Hall" and then I wrote down the memories.

I couldn't go to my Artist's date because of the rain. So I was editing my novel instead and I got really bored.

Here is the video

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The Artist's Way (Day 5) I'm a pianist

Today as an exercise for my Artist's Way project. I decided to play the piano for you. I haven't played in months so it's full of mistakes but I guess if I keep at it for a few days, I might be able to get something decent again.

I actually started playing the piano again because of a project called the Give it 100. Then of course I didn't stick with it long enough. I still managed 30 days though. Now their website is gone but you can see my post 33 day laps video here.

You can also check the other video when I started again here. If you want to see a better version of me playing the first song in this video you can have a look here.

I think I might retry again and do it on this channel. Please let me know if you are interested in seeing that.

Other than this exercise of going into a parallel life and pretending to be a different version of me, I didn't do much for the Artist's Way today.

I sort of got annoyed when doing my morning pages and stopped after 2 pages and I didn't do any affirmations or any other exercises.

Hopefully, I'll be able to do better tomorrow. 

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The Artist's Way (Day 4) Parallel Universes

Hi guys and welcome to Day 4 of the Artist's Way.

Today I did quite a bit for my Artist Way project. I started with the morning page, I did a bit of digging up the bad stuff though none of it came out during my positive affirmations. Then I decided to start on exercise 8 which is listing 5 alternative lives. I call that the parallel lives travel. It was actually quite fun to figure out other things that i might be doing. The second part of the exercice is to actually do it, o I'll pic one of the lives tomorrow and do that .

Here is the video

 

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The Artist's Way (Day 3) and WeWriWar, Snippet Sunday

Today I didn't do much for the Artist's Way. I just got something really weird happening. So when you do the affirmation and say good things about yourself, you are supposed to have negative feedback from your inner voice or negative memories coming up. This morning, there was nothing. So I just tried to write the sentence nicely instead. It's really weird but at the same time I tend to try not to stick to the negative so much so it might get buried deep in.

Today, since it's Sunday, I'm also participating in the Week-end Writing Warriors and Snippet Sunday.

It's basically a blog hop where writers share 8 to 10 sentences of their work and read each other's work.

If you are a writer, you can join and share your work too. If you are a reader, you can join and discover new writers and new little pieces of story every weeks. 

Here is the video  

 

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